Beginning Again, 01-18-2024

I was searching my Google Drive account and ran across an entry I had written about Situational Ethics and Value Philosophy. I reread it and was impressed with what I had written. I thought at the time it was in Google Drive because I hadn't imported it to my Blogger account. I eventually migrated to this account and realized I had posted the opinion piece. I was so impressed with myself and my desire to write I decided to Begin Again.

I turned 77 two days ago. It was a low-key event. We were surrounded by ice. The one thing I do not like when living in Oregon is the occasional freezing rain event. I realized I was a rain worshipper as I was praying and wishing and hoping for rain to melt the ice and therefore free me from my ice prison. The rain started yesterday and today there is no evidence of its having previously existed. It is still raining leaving standing water in one of my driveways where I park my pickup. That particular low spot is destined to by filled in by a load of 3/4-minus gravel. 

I left off blogging back in 08-2020 when I received the results of my T-cell reprogramming. My reprogramed T-cells had no effect on my stomach tumor. Eventually I had the stomach tumor biopsied. It is a GastroIntestinal Stromal Tumor. The key word is stromal. It means slow growing, non-aggressive. I was prescribed a pill to combat its growth. I handled the side effects of the drug well with the exception of the pills effect on my phosphorus levels. I began taking phosphorus supplements. No other side effects presented. 

Early in 2023 after a quarterly CT scan I was informed a second GIST(hard 'g' please, as in Gastro) had formed on my large intestine. The pill prescription was doubled to one in the morning and one in the evening. Thus began a side effect, chronic diarrhea. Another aspect of doubling the pill intake was increasing the phosphorus to 3 pills 4 times a day. Getting the 3 pills 4 times per day down was quite a challenge. I use my smart phone to help me remember to take them. Meanwhile, not long after the second GIST diagnosis, my PSA numbers shot up. I was referred to my Urologist for follow up. First step was a biopsy to confirm the diagnosis, prostate cancer. 

The prostate biopsy was an interesting event in my life. It was originally scheduled for late spring. I staggered (8 AM appointment) in to my Urologist's office and learned I hadn't done the preliminary stuff I was informed I needed to do. I vaguely recalled reading the information, but I don't think I was ready to hear the news, results of the biopsy, yet.

I knew from reading cancer is genetic. My father indirectly shared with me he had his prostate removed. I learned this in his Urologist's office from his Urologist. Those of you reading this may relate to our parents' reluctance to share serious medical stuff or anything deemed worth keeping a secret, and not talking about IT. Thus I wasn't surprised I may have prostate cancer, but in truth, I wasn't ready to hear I had another cancer. Thus my staggering, unprepared, entrance into my Urologist's office.

A second biopsy was scheduled. I did all the preliminary stuff and the biopsy was performed. I found it uncomfortable but not painful. It was after the lidocaine wore off it became VERY painful. Prior to this experience I had gone through 4 biopsies. My experience with the three previous left me with the memory biopsies were not a big deal. This one was a big deal. The pain subsided by evening so no long lasting effect. And yes I do indeed have prostate cancer. I was assigned an Oncologist specializing in prostate cancer. During our initial consult the oncologist scheduled an MRI to determine if the cancer had spread to the bones. The MRI revealed there was a likelihood the cancer was present in the hip area bones, two spots. The treatment is a shot once every 4 months. The shot slows down the production of testosterone and therefore the cancers urge to grow. One of the side effects of the shot is a lack of energy. I have a lack of energy. Just look at the dirty dishes stacked up in the kitchen.

I had another CT scan during the summer and learned from my primary Oncologist a mass showed up on my right exterior pericardial wall. I needed another biopsy.

A rather bizarre like affair followed in scheduling the biopsy. It needed to be done in Portland at one of the  Kaiser hospitals. There came a point when I wondered why I hadn't heard from a scheduler regarding my biopsy. I checked my phone messages. Nothing there from a hospital. Eventually I found a number to call and schedule. The person I talked with said they couldn't schedule it at the time. I recall I needed to consult with the surgeon first. Thus began this series of phone calls where the hospital folks kept saying they had left messages and I responded there were no messages on my phone from them. I was encouraged to call back to speak with the surgeon and I did after a scheduled time to catch the surgeon in his office. He would call me. The time passed. No message. I called back and his assistant said he was in his office. She checked with him and he was on the phone. I was encouraged to wait. I did. We spoke and then the biopsy was scheduled. My point in sharing the preceding is the following realization. Some time later I was checking messages and decided I needed to clear a whole bunch of messages I didn't need anymore. Clearing those messages revealed down at the bottom of the few remaining messages was a heading 'blocked messages.' I investigated and found all the messages purported to have been left by not only the Kaiser people, but my Wildfire Recovery contact person. So to the reader if you have an iPhone remember this passage and scroll to the bottom of the main message menu to find blocked messages. I had blocked the numbers because I saw no message in the main menu so thought it was spam, junk calls. I now check both lists.

The biopsy went well. I had to stay overnight as it was in the heart area where the samples were collected. Because of the overnight I was able to drive there and back. I experienced discomfort around the primary incision site for several weeks. The biopsy confirmed the return of Non Hodgkins Lymphoma. I have three different cancers undergoing treatment. The treatment for the Lymphoma is 2 days back to back every 21 days. I spend about 4 hours at Kaiser Skyline Infusion Center the first day then come back for a 15 minute session the next day. The only noticeable side effect is a greasy sensation in the mouth effecting food and water. It is just off putting. Kind of dampens the appetite, but not too much. I am currently beginning cycle 4 of the 21 day cycle.

All the preceding should bring you, the reader, up to date. I have 3 cancers, but there is a caveat. December 6, I had 4 cancers. December 7, 3 cancers. December 6, I underwent a MOHS surgery to remove two basal cells from my scalp. One on top of my head and really wasn't aware of and a second, a black, ugly scab slightly above my left ear. I was awake during the whole removal of the two. MOHS is outpatient surgery and its primary difference from other cancer surgeries is there is a lab on site so the surgeon can receive feedback whether their initial effort got all of the malignant cells. If they didn't then the patient returns to the table to have more tissue removed. In my case the one above the ear needed some follow up. It was a full day as the Kaiser MOHS site is in Portland. I was late arriving due to traffic, but the staff were very understanding. My son, Jaxom, came with me to drive us home. I have some pictures of my head showing the bandaging afterward.

Thanks for reading, until next time may peace be with you.

  

Long Time No Word from Me

 August 30, 2020

To those of you who have been trying to keep up with me regarding my Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma challenge I issue an apology. If you recall my last entry, I wrote about the monitoring of my CAR T transfusion by my OHSU doctors. The first 30 days ended August 7, and I was scheduled to meet with my Oncologist on the 12th to discuss how the CAR T was working based on what a CT scan revealed. Due to a Kaiser and OHSU contract conflict that meeting and scan had to be rescheduled. I received a CT scan Tuesday, August 25, and met with my Oncologist, August 27.

The results of the CT scan revealed no change for the stomach mass where the B cell(s), which is the aggressive form of Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, and a couple new nodules on my liver. This was not good news. My oncologist shared they cannot tell if the T cells are gone or just sluggish meaning they haven't started working yet or the B cell mass is effectively hiding. 

My oncologist suggested several treatment options most involved chemotherapy. We decided a biopsy was the next best step. My oncologist said he needed to consult with my Kaiser oncologist to see what can be worked out.

So, I am in waiting mode awaiting word from Kaiser.

I feel good. Energy levels are improving. I am dealing with neuropathy in my toes and water retention in my ankles(cankles). 

Waiting is.

 

RED, WHITE AND BLUE

What we won’t do for science. What that means to me is participating in cutting edge medical technology to cure a disease I currently have. There are risks with being on the cutting edge. My risks are several with two being of utmost concern: cytokine release syndrome (CRS) and neurotoxicity. CRS is the result of fever spikes with 100.4 degrees being the indicator of something going on above and beyond the CAR-T therapy. Day 0, the day I received my ‘reprogrammed’ T cells back, was July 6, Day 1, July 7 and Day 2, July 8. I was seen by a physician on Days 1 and 2. During the evening of Day 2, after 9 PM, my fever began to spike. I was having chills and climbed into bed hoping to drop the temperature and then recalled I needed to know what my temperature was, so I took it. 101.4 degrees was what the thermometer said. I couldn’t recall what the temperature cutoff was and went looking for it amongst all the literature I have accumulated in regards to this cutting-edge medical technology. I vaguely recalled there was a script I must recite to the answering triage nurse. All I could find was the phone number for OHSU Emergency department. I identified myself as an oncology patient and my last temp reading of 101.4. Dameon drove me to the emergency room. I was admitted. Kept in emergency room till the next morning when a room was cleared for me on the floor for cancer patients. 

The night in emergency was pretty uncomfortable. The bed was all mechanical, meaning no hydraulics or electronics to adjust the bed. Crank it up or crank it down. The mattress was very old and thin. I felt every crossbar under the mattress. My supposition was the bed was pulled out of storage when Covid patients required all the newer stuff for their treatment. 

I got breakfast, strawberry yogurt, fresh strawberries and fresh blueberries. My hospital physicians promised me a different bed which I got. By then a room had been prepped for me and a CNA delivered me to the room. Shortly after arriving I realized I was going to need an emesis bag. The RN realized they had none in the room and stepped out to get some. I realized I couldn’t wait and stepped into my bathroom and proceeded to unload breakfast. Yes, red, white and blue all over the nice clean toilet. After cleaning up the bathroom the RN asked what I had that was so red since there had been more strawberries than the yogurt and blueberries. 

Later the same day when coming in to check on me and asking how I was feeling I could not reply. I had lost my voice.

The next morning, I had a group call with several of my old high school classmates and I did not want to miss the call. As I was getting my iPad adjusted on my lap one of my classmates commented on my double chin. Yes, I have a double chin so what was the use in commenting back or denying the reality of a double chin. After our call had concluded and I was finishing up some bathroom duties I looked in the mirror and saw I had turkey neck or turkey doppelgangers. Two lymph nodes had swollen to golf ball size, which I believe is what my classmate had seen. One on each side of my Adam’s apple. I could gobble and shake my head back and forth and wallah turkey neck. Gobbling was difficult yet, but not shaking the head.

Sometime on Sunday, I received a medication, Tociluzimab, a medicine blocking inflamed proteins and my fever spikes stopped. Since other causes of inflammation were eliminated, they felt pretty comfortable stating my fever spikes were due to CRS. I spent Monday night and Tuesday night in the hospital to make sure and released Tuesday.

I have had no further fever issues. I have been feeling OK, energy levels low, doing more sleeping and napping.

I am writing this on Day 16. My schedule with my doctors is now once very 3 days and tomorrow, Sunday, Day 17, (7/26/2020), is the next day to see a doctor. 

Day 30 is 8/7/2020, and at that time my first CT scan since before CAR T started will occur. This upcoming scan will be very telling. Cross our collective fingers and keep those prayers coming.

I can still feel the lump but doesn’t seem to be as painful, lately.

7-2 thru 7-4-2020 CAR T transplant begins

July 2, 2020, Sitting in my room at the Hyatt House

I have transitioned to Portland and a hotel room near OHSU’s Knight Cancer Center all arranged by OHSU. An oncology social worker contacted me back in May about housing to keep me close to OHSU after the CAR T transplant. I had to meet low income requirements and home distance to OHSU to qualify for a kind of grant program. I qualified although distance was right on the border line of being too close. My estimate is I'm 75 miles from OHSU and the funding agency prefers 100 miles, but the OHSU social worker was persuasive. It is my intent to keep these blog entries reflective of the CAR T process and how frequently the doctors want to see me to determine how I'm doing.

Today’s activity was all about getting me ready for my 4^th of July weekend and next Wednesday. Starting tomorrow, July 3, begins a 3-day course of chemo. Short days, two bags, 30 minute each, of a specific cancer drug, Fludarabine and Cyclophosphamide. The chemo drugs are administered back to back. There are labs and checkups before. There is hydration before. There will be a hydration period after the last chemo drug to flush the body out. Then providing there are no reactions needing attention I am through for the day. Saturday will be the same. Sunday starts in the afternoon with the same routine before, but after there may be a third drug administered. I can’t find it, the third drug, in today’s paperwork, so I am flying blind with my guess work. Then two days off, rest, and Wednesday, July 8, I get my overhauled T cells back and welcome a few new T cells (clones I’ll bet) in 10 to 30 minutes of time. Then it really starts. July 8 is Day 0 and 7/9 is day 1 and so on.

July 4, 2020

I have finished my second day of chemo. I had a problem connecting my laptop to the Hyatt House Wi-Fi, but Dameon has solved my connection issue, which now allows me to update on a timelier basis. Today was quicker than yesterday. Friday’s chemo session ended around noon. Today it was 11:30. As speculated above everything is progressing according to the plan. I am not experiencing any discomfort from the chemo drugs (yet). I think the only discomfort will be a loss of hair, again, which is not a pain issue, just a self-esteem issue. 

One issue popping up during yesterday's infusion was my PICC line and during today's infusion it was a topic of discussion. The line into my body has a tendency to pull out during redressing the bandage covering. This is not uncommon for a PICC line. There are marks on the tubing line every centimeter. When first inserted there were only 4.5 centimeters of tubing showing before the tube disappears into my body. Now 8.5 centimeters are showing. Four centimeters have pulled out in the 6 months of living with the PICC line. It only pulls out during the changing of the covering not during daily living activities. The bandage holds everything in place. Way back when it was first noticed the tubing was beginning to pull out I had an X-ray done. The radiologist warned if it reaches 9 then its replacement time. As you can see I have a half centimeter to go. The upshot is during my two rest days I must get an X-ray to see if current placement of the tubing end next to my heart is acceptable. If not then I get a new PICC line. I found the initial PICC line installation to be very easy and unobtrusive. Which does not explain my anxiety regarding the installation of a new PICC line. This issue will get more attention in subsequent blog entries.

Monday, June 22, Catching Up

Today is Monday, June 22. You last heard from me May 26, almost a month has elapsed since I last reported on my condition. I am now dropping in to say what condition my condition is in. Currently feeling ok per my use of a song lyric from my youth. Some of my readers are wondering how Apheresis went and what actually happened. 

The day, June 2, started early (for me) and ended late, which is not unusual (for me). I had to report early for a surgical procedure where an inline catheter was placed. One end entered my body near the right collar bone and the other end, a special tube, about the diameter of surgical tubing, but much stiffer with perforations strategically placed, ending near my heart. I experienced no discomfort from the procedure and afterwards. Once I was cleared, I was wheeled off to the Apheresis unit. I was attached to a centrifuge via my inline catheter and blood was withdrawn to have the T cells withdrawn and everything else returned to me. My rudimentary understanding is the catheter and tubing allow for blood to flow in both directions at the same time. I was hooked up to the centrifuge for 5.5 hours. I wasn’t interested in daytime tv. I did not bring a charger for my phone, so I did not have a source of diversion to occupy myself. It was boring except for chatting with my primary care giver. I was given discharge instructions and off I went into the evening. Somewhere during our maneuvers to exit the main OHSU campus, Marquam Hill, I received a call from my OHSU MSW, who was the point person on the Apheresis process. The MSW said all the T cells harvested were acceptable so there would be no need for me to come back tomorrow for a second session in the Apheresis lab. Oh Yay, says I. What this meant to me more immediately is I would not have to spend a night with the catheter in place. It also meant we had to go to the lower campus to have a nurse remove the catheter. We made it and there was no long wait. Turned out the charge nurse new where Mehama was. Grew up further upstream from me and went to school in Gates/Mill City. Dameon and I returned to our overnight abode around 8:30. 

The next morning, I had to be at Sunnyside Hospital for an 11 AM pulmonary test. Part of the pre-tests for the CAR T therapy. And that afternoon back in Salem for my first radiation treatment. I had a preliminary talk with the Radiation Oncologist supervising my brief spate of radiation while waiting for the return of my T cells, June 1. This included my target areas being determined and marked with little tiny tattoo dots by special technicians. I walked into the waiting area and shortly after the radiation techs came and escorted me back to the radiation machine.  What a piece of modern technology, and not by any stretch of the imagination like a normal cat scan machine. This machine unpacks several arms each with a different device on the end. These arms would rotate around me at the direction of the technicians who were monitoring me via computers. In and out of radiation treatment in less than 15 minutes and on my way home a few minutes later. Wow, impressive!! That was Wednesday and Thursday.

Friday I was awakened by a pain in my chest. I dressed myself as always then went and collapsed in my lounge chair and waited to see if the pain would abate, which it didn’t. I called an OHSU triage nurse and went over the symptoms with the nurse, who consulted with my OHSU oncologist. It was determined I needed to go to emergency. Dameon drove me in. Checked myself in and then waited before getting escorted to a room for a vitals check then back out to the waiting room and waited. Eventually they got me into an intermediary room while I waited for a CAT scan of my chest. During this wait I became hungry but was told I could not eat until after the CAT scan and even after the CAT scan I had to wait for a doctor to read and interpret the scan results before I could eat. A Kaiser Hospitalist came to me with the results of the CAT scan. I had blood clots, but not a pulmonary embolism (PE), which was good news for the doctor meaning I dodged a bullet. The solution was an overnight stay for observation and a ton of Lovenox syringes. Lovenox is a blood thinner, but of the new variety which inhibits further growth of current blood clots and stops future development of blood clots (because my blood is thin?). When the Lovenox solution was presented to me there was an implication this could be a lifetime thing(?). I’m not interested in jabbing myself twice a day in my stomach flab for the rest of my life. I’ll do it for now. I was discharged Saturday morning and by Sunday morning was feeling reasonably well. No chest pain, and still aware of a lump on my stomach. 

The following week, June 8 through June 12, was attending my radiation treatments in the afternoon and hanging out at home. The following week was much the same except Friday, June 19, was my last day of radiation. It looked like the next week, today through June 26, was going to be very laid back, but Saturday, June 20, the RN who is my oncology doctor’s primary assistant called to check in and give me an outline of what the future was looking like. Around the end of the month things will start heating up for me and CAR T transplant. The RN said as soon as all the dates were locked in, she would send me copy of the calendar. So, my 4^th of July may be very different for me. I will keep you posted.

I MUST BE ON A HILL BECAUSE IT APPEARS ALL DOWNHILL FROM MY PERSPECTIVE 05/16/2020 thru 5/26

I am actually writing this on the 24^th. The week of 5/16 through 5/22 was chock full of appointments in Salem and Portland.

Monday, I was scheduled for an EGD in Portland. The appointment was set for 1 PM. I had breakfast at 11 AM and shortly after we were off to Portland. As we approached the outskirts of Portland my memory cells started working again and I recalled my last EGD in January. That memory helped me remember I had been on a fasting order from Midnight to 5:30 PM the next evening. All of which made me realized I had screwed up and broke my fast which would postpone my EGD. I shared with the nurse my predicament. She checked with the doctor who canceled the EGD. Staff then went to work finding me a spot in the schedule ASAP. They found one for Tuesday, early afternoon the next day, and I was in the clear as long as I remembered the fasting expectation.

Tuesday morning, I had a brain MRI in Salem. Then Dameon and I were off to Portland for my EGD. 

Wednesday, I had a Fluoroscopy scheduled in Salem. I had to look the word up and found a definition indicating it was a way of X-rays to take motion pictures. I got into the fluoroscopy room, and while I was engaged in a pleasant conversation with the tech person I saw on a screen or a piece of paper, I saw the phrase, Lumbar Puncture. I had my gasps, mostly internal, before I recalled the conversation with my OHSU oncology doctor who said they would need to look at my spinal fluid for signs of cancer. I settled in for the puncture process. I was on the table for approximately an hour. Several punctures later the doctor was yet to see my body giving up any fluid. The puncture process was ended without any fluid. It was determined I may need to come back for a second try. The thought of going through what I had just experienced was one I wanted to avoid at all costs. We went home. I applied ice and heat throughout the evening. 

Thursday, it was back to Portland for afternoon appointments, with the Aphersis nurse who examined my veins to see where they would be extracting my T cells, a blood draw, and a conversation with my OHSU oncologist. The conversation with my oncologist started with an uplifting note. The doctor had already heard about the lumbar puncture. If the brain MRI showed no abnormalities, then there would be no need for a lumbar puncture. During this conversation the oncologist presented the reason for moving the T cell extraction back one week to June 2. It was important the chemo drugs from my Cycle 3, day 1 and day 8 were completely gone from my system. The nurse practioner (NP) had been monitoring email notifications during the conversation and at one point got up and went to the computer. After looking at the message turned to the oncologist with a wry smile. The oncologist couldn’t help but noticed she seemed pleased with what she had read. The oncologist read the message and relayed to me the MRI report noted there were no abnormalities in the scan and therefore I would not need a follow up lumbar puncture. YAYYYYYY!!! To those of you reading this if you are scheduled for a lumbar puncture be well hydrated, exceedingly so. I was not. 

Friday, no appointments, but several phone calls from MSWs, OHSU and Kaiser, and a person calling to schedule a needle biopsy for my stomach B cell. Tuesday’s EGD led the doctor to assert the B cell was on the exterior of the stomach and thus a biopsy from the stomach interior was not possible. The appointment date offered was June 3 which to my way of thinking was a day late and a dollar short. I referred the person back to the source of the referral for clarification. Later Friday, I began to experience an intense headache, actually a neckache. I was able to sleep during the night. 

Saturday, I awoke without any sign of discomfort other than some mild nausea. Maybe a couple hours after arising the headache returned and this time the discomfort was behind the eyes. I chose to lay down on my bed. I, apparently, fell asleep as I was awakened by a phone call from Dameon. The discomfort was gone and did not return the rest of the day. I attributed the headache/neckache to the lumbar puncture, but who knows? Energy level was minimal and as a result I didn’t go for any walks. Standing on my front porch was the extent of my outdoor activity.

Sunday, a day of rest. A couple of walks with Lizzie.

Monday, I was brought back to reality, so to speak. My sister-in-law wondered what time we would be arriving. She had not been informed in the change of dates until I responded to her email stating the date had been moved. The good news for me was I still had a place to stay on June 1. I had complained about my memory during past visits to the infusion nurses and had gotten a response “cancer brain.” Chemo drugs can cause confusion. An excuse to be avoided and yet a very real issue. My thinking had settled into Memorial Day weekend, but not associating the weekend with any specific dates. When May 26 had been chosen as the original date for Aphersis I did not associate the date with Memorial Weekend. I assumed I had another week, which is true now but wasn’t last Thursday when the reasons were provided for the change in date. It took me until last night just before going to bed for the light to go off in my brain and I could see how I screwed up. Until that moment, which was set off by a date I glimpsed before going to bed, I was still holding the weekend and the current dates as two separate items in my head. Talk about a day late and a dollar short!

Tuesday, May 26, I am catching my blog up. I feel OK. Energy level is up. No current discomfort whether in my head or my abdomen. So far, no appointments this week. It could be a complete week of rest. I may not be adding any blog entries if the week remains appointment free. I would like to catch you up after the Aphersis appointment, June 2.

Until the next time, Peace Be With You.

TREATMENT TRANSITIONS AND OTHER ITEMS, 5-06 to 05-12-2020

05-06-2020, Thinkin’ ‘bout Lymphoma(still); money remarks; Covid 19 and stem cell transplant (starts tomorrow)

Yesterday, Tuesday, May 5, I completed Cycle 3, Day 1. Tomorrow I travel to Oregon Health Sciences University to begin the preliminary stuff for the stem cell transplant. I predict the stem cell schedule will hold pretty much to the treatment cycle I’m on with Kaiser. So, if nothing changes date wise should expect to be at OHSU Tuesday, May 26, for, up to, two weeks, which is when they infuse the drugs to kill the malignant cells and put in my good cells. Vacuuming out my stem cells will happen before Then I am sent home and for the next 30 days, monitored for any significant reactions, such as, vomiting, diarrhea, and temperature. If I need all the preceding time to accept the transplant, I will be looking at 45 days more of treatment.

Yesterday’s infusion went well. It took longer due to my RN having to make a couple consults with higher ups.

05-09-2020

Thursday, I went to OHSU to begin the preliminaries for a stem cell transplant. Navigating the complex was my big challenge. I had two appointments with 30 minutes between them. The first was up on the hill in the Hatfield building then down to the waterside for the big meet in the Knight Cancer treatment complex. I became distracted on my way up to my first appointment’s floor and got off when a fellow passenger got off the elevator. 

Proper distancing was practiced or at least as much as an elevator with two people in it will allow on the diagonal. 

Anyway, I was on the wrong floor. I walked into one area and was immediately asked if I needed help. An RN escorted me to the correct elevator and floor I needed to go to(return to) and go back up to the floor I needed to be on. I made it but, not on time. I’m not sure if this appointment simply was an assessment as to where transfusion should occur, or they were looking to install a line. Now that I think about it, installing a line, like my PICC line in my right upper bicep, requires a sterile setting and some time. Someone may be overthinking it a bit. The nurse assessing me called out to another nurse at a computer, “We’ll put a port line in on his left side.” The nurse at the computer acknowledged receipt and subsequent entry. An appointment has to be made. This is where I would undergo transfusion. T-cells out, sent out to be cleaned by Norvartis, frozen at Norvartis, then brought back to be infused into my system when ready. Oh yes, did I mention Norvartis has a role in this transplant. Just so you know Novartis is involved. Novartis. And so, I am pretty sure after so much emphasis Norvartis is part of the process.  

05-10-2020

Saturday and Sunday were days of fatigue. Whole lot of sitting and sleeping, cat napping.

05-12-2020

Cycle 3, Day 2, I woke up around 3:30 this morning to pee. I completed my obligation then headed back to bed. As I was laying there waiting to fall asleep, I noticed a rather uncomfortable sensation in my stomach. ‘What is that,’ I thought to myself. Wow do I have to throw up? Ah yep. Dry heaves. 4 or 5 heaves, big sloppy runny nose, alligator tears and I was through. Made it back to bed and chose to lay on my left side, which proved quite unremarkable given my past history with the left side. I fell asleep and was awakened by my 7 AM alarm. I felt like shit. I did not want to get out of bed. I did not want to go get a blood draw in preparation for today’s infusion, I did not want to go to my chemotherapy, I did not want to Sam I Yam. So, I laid there until Dameon rousted me out of bed. The stomach was nauseous. After 5 minutes of sitting in my lounge chair/throne, it was pretty apparent I wasn’t through with the dry heaves. Another bout of 4 or 5 heaves with the same extra-curriculars as earlier on the side and I was pretty wasted. Dameon had prepared a cup of coffee and a glass of water to ease my stomach’s transition. I knew a cup of black coffee would not do well in my sensitive stomach. I asked Dameon to blend some ganja butter into the cuppa. He did so and I experienced the delight of a hot beverage offering me comfort. The ganja butter offers two benefits off the top to me. One, ganja has anti-nausea properties, and two, it stimulates the appetite. The nausea abated and I was able to shower before hopping into the pickup to start the day’s adventure in Salem. 

First stop was a blood draw. By the time I was finished with the blood draw my appetited was robust. The problem is chemo has an effect on my taste. I experience some sort of coating but isn’t a coating. The taste of food is masked. Masked in such a way it appeals to me as uninteresting. I think about a food and the coating comes to mind and obscures(may not be the right word) the taste. Best way to express this phenomenon is food has no appeal, the thought of a particular food item can leave me flat, no desire. Thus, if I’m hungry I now run a menu thru my head to see if something jumps out to my senses. 

This morning, after my blood draw, I fixated on a pancake with one fried egg, over medium, please. I was in the pickup ready to eat and then I remembered this is he time of Covid. Order by phone and pickup. We did so. Ate in the pickup.  

There is an expression used by the patients and caregivers called ‘chemo brain.’ I bring it up now as it has many manifestations. Alertness is a challenge. Not tracking my behavior very well, meaning how I am operating the unit named Dennis is becoming real interesting. I managed to dribble syrup over my clean shirt, later spilled a part of a latte on self and car seat. I find these

Instances frustrating even though others may find them minor in their impact. Another aspect of chemo brain is thinking, conversing, logically, coherently. I’m falling way short there. 

An example of chemo brain: On the way home after running a couple more errands I received a phone call, which, turned out to be my oncologist. The phone call was to inform me I had been approved by Kaiser to continue on with the OHSU stem cell treatment. The process is interesting to my eye. My oncologist notices the chemo treatment is not 100%, so, writes up a referral and presents the proposal/referral to the tumor board. The tumor board is a meeting of all the Kaiser oncologists once al week or every other week, not sure. Cases are presented for feedback and suggestion, I imagine. My case was presented as a viable stem cell transplant. The tumor board approved this first step, to refer the case to OHSU and see if they are interested and if I’m a good candidate for success. I interviewed with the DO who will be my case physician. The DO thought I was a good candidate and said the next step was to get Kaiser’s approval(not the tumor board) before moving forward. Kaiser’s approval had to do with who pays. Kaiser said they would. I’m in the program and now awaiting the next schedule of tests, and meetings.  

But wait, this was supposed to be about chemo brain thinking. Back on track. I had a question about timing as did Dameon and started in to ask my question and then lost my point, and the subject. The good news for me is I hung in there and finally remembered my question was about timing. When they take my healthy T-cells will I begin my approximately 30 days of close observation? My chemo brain kicked in around ‘approximately.’ I gasped and hee-hawed and made other exclamations of frustration. And, I persevered and was able to pull the missing piece of the question out of my chemo loaded brain and get some clarity, both for myself and Dameon who knows the 30 days of close observation may be highly dependent on him. Unless we can get him help. All things will be revealed as the process rolls along. Dameon had one very interesting question at the end. He wanted to know how clean would our house have to be to pass inspection(Dameon, I would imagine) for a very immunosuppressed individual(me after T-cell vacuuming) to live in said house. Three bachelor Engbloms, what the hell do you think it’s gonna look like, huh? Rough and ready, baby, rough and ready.

Thank you for reading and until next time peace be with you.

And not a single word or comment about money and how Covid intersects the conversation. For some other time.